Kotomine Kirei searches for answers in "Fate/Zero" episode 17

Kotomine Kirei is...well, VILE, for the most part, and in "Fate/Stay Night" material he is a rather boring and pompous villain. but Gen Urobuchi in "Fate/Zero" gives Kirei a little more depth. here, in a key scene in the 17th episode, "The Eighth Contract", Kirei allows himself a moment of honesty: he knows that what he really wants will destroy him.