es - crying 【AMV】

⚠️CW: dark imagery, topics, blood ⚠️
good god this song has had me in a chokehold for YEARS
a lot of the things portrayed here are based on personal things, but feel free to interpret it however you'd like! i'd love to hear your takes in the comments vv

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characters/OC's: yorin lux
time taken: 3 weeks
programs used: toonsquid, capcut
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original song: Crying - "ES" (Official Audio)

lyrics:

how does the world perceive me
perceiving myself?
all i care to do is sip on
beer and chocolate milk
i'm frightened more than
usual, lately

i do not translate into
'one of the boys'
'lotus flower'
or 'chinita'

i'm just ES and i'd prolly rather
nap than wonder, restlessly:
will ya ever be impressed by me?
mom doesn't think i fit into the
darling archetype, but
that's an ancient pair of jeans

and my thighs are
crafted
holy,
rolling thunder
forget the numbers
forget the numbers, please

every goddamn family reunion,
someone's got somethin' to say
how didja become this way?

as if i've made a mistake
meanwhile, they've slaughtered the cake